It has been awhile since I wrote a blog post. I have had many things on my mind for awhile and just filed them away so that I could write about them later. Lots of things have been going on in life. Some of the things going on have been exciting and great, while others have not been so exciting and great.
I have had a hard time the past few months with knowing that in a few short years I will have an empty nest and at this point I will be all alone. Now before someone says something let me just say I know that I am not ever truly alone, I have Christ in my life and He is always with me. You see I have always since I was a young child knew that I was going to be a mom. I wanted 12 kids in the beginning, then I switched to 6 and stopped at 5. I know that in the Bible we are told that we will go through many seasons in life.
Now I was o.k when my oldest son moved out, when he got married I had a tough time, but I knew it was his time to move into another season in his life and I gained a beautiful daughter in law. My oldest daughter left for college and that was a little rough on my because it was rough on my youngest son. That lasted almost a semester and then she came home. The next year she rented a place in Maryville, Missouri and lived over there for a couple of years. She still called when she was sick or needed something. I think I was o.k because I still felt needed so to speak. Now my next youngest daughter has graduated from high school is in her 2nd year of college, has a boyfriend, which she spends lots of time with. She has always said she would live with me forever. That used to give me lots of comfort, i knew in the back of my mind she would someday move on this summer made the realization that much more clear. She left for 10 days with her boyfriends family on vacation and it kinda threw me for a loop for real. I cried almost as much if not more than I did when I sent Jordin off to kindergarten. This brings me to the middle son. Mom used to be cool and he used to be the best kid ever and then mid-late teen years hit and mom has become the worse person he has met. Now don't get me wrong he does have moments where mom is a o.k, like when he is sick or needs money. His hormones and puberty is gonna cause me to need to color my hair more often. Then we have the youngest he is just hitting the hormones and he is still human and not a full blown teenage alien. LOL
Now I know that God has something great in store for the next season in my life, He has already made me a memaw and that makes my heart happy in so many ways, although those close to me know that there have been some problems with the relationships on that side of things. It is sad and breaks my heart, but I was his baby sitter for the first 4 months of his life and I still get to see him. I was able to bond with him and for that time I am so thankful. He knows that memaw loves him no matter what. What else will happen in this season I am not sure, but I know that after overcoming the massive anxiety I had this summer that I am truly excited and trusting God. I am praising Him through the storm and He carries me when I can't walk..
I have been at my current job for 2 years now. I really do love what I do and enjoy my customers. I have met some really great friends. I believe that God is opening doors to some other things and I am excited to see what is coming.. God is so good and I thank Him for all that He has done, will do and can do. Moral of all this is that no matter how bad the storm gets know that if you have HIM and trust HIM, He will get you through the storm and help you to come out better after. I have weathered many storms in life some I weathered without Him and many I have with Him. With HIM is so much better..
God Is Good..
God Bless
Hello Marcia. I am a Pastor from Mumbai, India. I am glad to stop by your profile on the blogger and the blog post. I am also blessed and feel privileged and honored to get connected with you as well as know you as a woman of God whose trust is in the Him who takes His children through the storm and places them on a higher ground. I was moved while going through your life's challenges. Yes the Lord will never leave you alone. He is good indeed. I love getting connected with the people of God around the globe to be encouraged,strengthened and praying for one another. I have been in the Pastoral ministry for last 38 yrs in this great city of Mumbai a city with a great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live. We reachout to the poorest of poor with the love of Christ to bring healing to the brokenhearted. we also encourage young and the adults from the west to come to Mumbai to work with us during their vacation time. we would love to have your grown up children to come to Mumbai to work with us during their vacation time. I am sure they will have a life changing experience. My email id is : dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar Wankhede. Looking forward to hear from you very soon. God's richest blessings on you, your family and friends.
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