Long lost friends and blessings...

I have wondered about you and missed you for years and wondered if I would ever talk to you again.. You and I had always been close you were like my best friend and older sister wrapped into one.. Gosh I cannot even tell you how happy I was to see that you wanted to be my friend on facebook yesterday.. I was super duper excited and then to talk to you on the phone today for the first time in FFFFOOOOORRRRREVVVVERRRRR was awesome.. I am so super duper excited that God has brought you back into my life.. A little sad that you now live 10, 000 miles away in Sweden, but that is ok.. We can chat online, on the phone and well hopefully visit.. :)
You are a blessing to me and I am so very happy for you Ami that you have found happiness with Mats and pray that all keeps going well with you in Sweden.. Don't worry I have like 5million thoughts running through my head about visiting and such..
Sometimes we forget how small of a thing a blessing can be or just how big they are.. Blessings are in different shapes, sizes, colors and etc.. Dont forget to look for the blessings from above in everything you say, do , recieve and etc.. God has so many blessings for each of us it is unreal to me sometimes...
Thank You Lord for bring my dear sister and friend Ami back into my life.. I am so thankful and also for her brother Danny.. God you are so good...


God Bless

Not good enough....

How many of you like me have ever felt like you are not good enough or have been told you are not good enough? I know how bad it hurts and how it makes you feel when you don't think you are good enough.
For some of us it is our families that make us feel this way or tell us we are not good enough and some of our families show us by the actions they have towards us. Maybe it is because we do not do things the way they think we should or the way others do them does this make them any more right that us?? No not really however some of us have had to make choices and decisions and take responsibilty for those choices, while others are given things on a silver platter..
For some of us it is friends that cause us to feel this way or maybe it's our co workers and as young people maybe teachers or coaches.. You see their are people who are supposed to love us and help us that do just the opposite...
I just want to let you know you ARE GOOD ENOUGH for God.. He loves us inspite of us and even when we are unloveable.. Do not forget this and don't let things get you down and make you feel like you are not good enough because I assure you that YOU ARE....

God Bless

I'll pray for you....

When I say I'll pray for you I am not meaning pray for you like in the new country song I'll pray for you.. I mean really pray for you..

          "I make mention of you always in my prayers".. Romans 1:9
"Confess your trespasses to one another and pray for one another that you may be healed. The effective fervant prayer of a righteous man avails much." James 5:16

I am one who thinks it is best to pray for not only my friend, but also those who persecute me as it says to do in the Bible.. I have found from things that have gone on and happened in the past that it is easier for me to just pray for everyone especially the ones who hurt me. You see I know that I could get even with them or hurt them, but it is God's job not mine so if I let Him deal with them whatever happens would be a far better lesson than what I did. He knows just how to deal with each of us and so I just pray for God's will, wisdom and strength to keep my mouth shut. I do not pray for harm, but for God's will and for them to recieve whatever lesson or consequences He has for them.
I pray because I am happy, sad, hurt, in need, blessed well let's just say I pray all the time because I love to talk to the Lord. I pray for you when you run through my mind. I pray for you if you ask. I pray for you if I see a need. Sometimes I just pray that God Bless ya just because.. I pray because I want to and I am free too... God has given me a heart to pray for others and to encourage others so that my friends is what I try to do...
I know their have been times in my life when prayer was the only answer and how great is it that we are able to pray whenever and wherever we are.. What a huge blessing and joy that is
I could talk alot on prayer and well I am sure there will be many post on the power of prayer, answered prayer, the joy of prayer and well just prayer..
Have you had your talk with Jesus today?? Stop take time to pray and not just ask for things, but thank Him for what He has done, will do, has given and will give you and ask Him to forgive you and remember to praise Him through your prayer.. God is so good..

God Bless

Menu Planner..

The kids are coming back from their dad's today so I have made out or menu for this week and then they will be gone a week then home a week.. So this menu is this week and the next week they are home or at least most of it... This menu is subject to change at anytime.. LOL

Here goes.....

beef fajitas
parmesan Chicken
Roast, taters and carrots
Chicken enchiladas
Meatballs, mashed taters, green beans
Pork chops, stuffing and corn
Mini Chimichangas
Pizza burgers
bacon cheeseburger balls
Omlets
breakfast pizza
Sandwhiches
BLT's
pancakes and bacon.... :)



Trying some new things will post recipes and such as I try them,,,

Have a great day

God Bless

It has been a loooong week....

Usually the weeks the kids are with their dad just fly by, however this week has been a bit different.. It seems to have lasted 2-3 weeks instead of just one week.. Of course lots has happened this week since they left.. Let's see Jill turned 15 last Saturday.. Family BBQ.. oh wait I mean drama Sat night, Church Sunday morning where we found out our dear Pastor and his family are leaving us in 3 short weeks, it has rained, had a bill paying day, ran errands, went to the store, made out my menu, took Jill for her permit test and babysat a few days..
So although it has been very busy and somewhat hectic this week still is dragging by.. I did have the kids with me for a little while yesterday and that was nice.. They are excited and ready to come home.. Who can blame them really.. There is no place like home and especially no place like home with a mommy who loves and cares about them and feeds them good food and spends time with them... I think tonight we will have supper then watch the movie The Secrets of Jonathon Sperry together. That should be fun...
Off to do a few more things before they get here..

God Bless

Sometimes I

Sometimes I wish I could make everything good for everyone.. Sometimes I wish I could make all the hurt stop... Sometimes I wish I had the power at my hand to make all your dreams come true... The more I stop and think about it I know that I can have a part in it to some degree because I have my Lord Jesus Christ and I pray for you and for me.. I know that He holds the future and whatever He has for us is not just good, but better than anything we could give ourselves. He has known us since before we were formed in our mother's womb and so He knows exactly what we need when we need it.
I know if you are like me sometimes you get down or sad or you see someone else having a hard time and you want to do something for them, but you have no idea just what to do.. I say do the one thing you can always do no matter what and that is to pray for them. I pray for them even when I am able to go and help them out in someway, because they may just need more than that helping hand.. When someone tells you there is nothing you can do just remember there is always something you can do... Pray Pray... I love to have long talks with God, He is my best friend and I can talk to Him whenever and whereever He always has time for me and He always has time for you.. So the next time you are wishing you could do something different or something to help someone out remember you can.... PRAY..



God Bless

Did you really think I would not figure it out...

In the beginning things were so good and you know what I was content with how things were at that time and would not have changed the beginning for anything.. I wish we could have had more time together, but we had all the time we could. You made me feel so special, so loved and so wanted, in fact it felt so good and so right I tried a few times to run away........ Everytime I returned to you and I loved you more and more with each passing moment I thought I would die without you. You made me promises and did things for me noone else had ever done and I was in awe... We had bumps yes, but in the beginning we were both willing to work to make things better and after awhile you seemed to give up like there was no way I could ever make you as happy as you first thought.. I would do just about anything for you and I guess maybe I was blinded by love or maybe it was stupidity. When I tried to walk away and couldn't it was because I felt like God was drawing me back to you I felt like He had a purpose to fufill through us and our family.
  I know kinda how God feels when He draws us to Himself and yet we try to keep doing our own thing. I know how He feels when His people whom He loves and wants to be with turn away and go thier own way not really caring about His ways.
  I maybe should not have pulled away when I felt you pulling away from me.. I tried to keep loving you and making you happy and you would not let me.. I know that their are things we could have done differently and the one main thing that sticks out in my head is that we could have kept Christ in the center of our relationship, looked to Him and His word to help us make it all work out..
  Now it seems as though you never cared as I thought you did and like it was all a lie.. I hope deep in my heart that was not the case for you. I pray that someday God has a talk with you and you realize that yes I had blame in it as well, but it was not all me.
  God has a sense of humor and a way of showing us things in a different way than we think. I pray that someday you wake up and know just how much you were loved, wanted and needed not just by me or my kids, but by your family and most inportantly by God.. Every night as I go to bed I pray that God wrap you in His arms and kiss you goodnight to make sure you feel loved.. I have said it before I wish I did not like you or care for you because maybe life would be better, but I do care and I pray for you everyday. It is not enough to talk the talk, but you need to learn to walk to walk and talk the talk at the same time... You are a blessing.. God has a purpose for you please don't ignore what God calls you do to..
  This goes for anyone reading this God has a plan and a reason for things. His ways are not our ways, for His are better.. Don't think you can fool God by only living for Him at certain times or in certain ways... He knows and He has a way of humbling His people to bring them back. If God is calling you to do something then do it, don't tell God to hold on because He does not tell you too.....

God Bless..

Just know that when you feel that snuggly feeling at night or the brush of angels wings I have prayed for God to kiss you and tuck you in tight and help you to feel loved..

15 years ago today.......

I was lying in the St Lukes Hospital on the plaza in Kansas City recovering from the birth of my 2 child 1st daughter.. Jillian Nichole Newton was born around 2:40pm weighing in 8 pounds and 2 ounces.. I was so sick with her my entire pregnancy and I see why people say if that had been the first one it would be the last.. LOL I thought the samething about my pregnancy with Jill.. Her big brother Jordin loved his sissy and was so glad momma was able to do more than just hug the toliet and sleep.. :) He is such a great big brother..
Jillian Nichole is going into the 10th grade this fall at THS.. She plays softball, basketball, runs track, sings in choir, plays in band and well just about anything else she can do.. She is boy crazy which drives her momma crazy, but all in all is a great kid.. Let me tell you though she is stubborn and a little mouthy, but hey she is a teenage girl right..
Jillian has the most beautiful long blonde natural curly hair, blue eyes and a beautiful smile..
She is very independent and has been since the time she was conceived. She knows what she wants and is willing to go after it.. She always wants to look cute, but has realized it is ok to not wear make-up. She loves the Lord.
Happy Birthday to my 2nd child 1st daughter Jillian Nichole Newton.. I love you and I am so very proud of you.. Keep smiling, keep doing your best and know that no matter what you have God on your side and a momma who is always there for you. Love you darlin even if you do wear your boots with shorts.. LOL I know I know it is the style... LOL You are so beautiful..
Happy Birthday Jillybean....

God Bless..

PS will let you know how she dones on her drivers permit test.

Daughter of the year.....

Yes you read that right I am in the running for daughter of the year now.. My oldest daughter and Jill went to my parents house last night and worked and are back at it today trying to make sure it is at least in some semblance of order for when my mother gets here for the weekend. Let me tell you that we both deserve an award. I will get back to you on whether or not my mother thinks it deserves an award.. I worked forever last night. I thought while waiting on the washer and dryer I would post a few posts on here and then I am going to share my blog addy with all of my friends.. :) So anyway just wanted everyone to know I am back in the running for daughter of the year.. :) After today I may have to pass the torch to My baby sister Megan I am sure I should not be the only kid out of us 5 to have so much fun.. :)
Have a great day and God Bless