Why must it be this way? Why must it hurt so bad? Why must you insist on doing your own thing instead of what the Lord leads you to do? Why does it not seem to bother you? Why is it you act as though you don't care and probably never did? Why am I the only one who cries for what is lost? Why is it when I pray for God to take the desire from my heart does it grow stronger when for you it seems to grow weaker? Why is it my heart sees it and feels it, other people see it and know it and yet you don't seem to have a clue??
I know better than to sit here playing this why game, but sometimes I just can't seem to help myself. I have been praying and seeking the Lord's will and I finally had come to a place where I knew it was ok to ask God to take the desires that I have in my heart away if they were not in His will.. It seemed that some were taken and well the ones I was not sure about were made stronger in my heart, which in some ways has made things so much harder for me.. I know His time and ways are perfect and I am thankful for that. I sometimes wonder just how much my heart or emotions can take. I sometimes wish I could get off the roller coaster and just sit and not have so many questions.. Somethings are much easier to figure out and live with and I guess I don't have as many patience as I thought I had... Oy Oy Oy..
Dear Lord,
I just want to be the person you created me to be doing the things you created me to do. I am sorry that I often worry and fret over things especially when I know that I have no control Father. I pray for forgiveness for worrying, stressing and questioning. Please forgive me Father.. You know my desires and if they are a part of Your Will then please bless me with them, and if they are not then Father please give me the desires that are of Your will.. I love you Lord Jesus.. Thank You for loving me and for allowing me to go through the trials and tribulations as well as the good times in life. You truly are an Awesome God.. I ask these things in Jesus Name Amen..
I need to focus more on His word and what He gives me everyday and rely on the fact that He will give me all that I need and so much more if all of my trust is in Him.. He knows what is best and He knows the best time to conduct His will in and for my life.. Thank You Jesus for always being there and loving me even when I let my flesh take over. PLease be with my friends reading this..
God Bless
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Free to a good home.......
Yes this is the sign I was going to give to my kids yesterday and send them to the end of the driveway.. LOL ok so not really, but I am telling you I know that something was in the air because my kids and the extra boy I had were acting like crazy monkey's.. In fact the extra kid went home early because I could no longer handle it.. I think they had fought about everything with each other they could and well needless to say my patience were wearing very very thin, however by late afternoon they were back to being good kids again then we went to bed and when we woke up today it has been good.
I have made 2 double batches of no bake cookies since Thursday and they are all gone.. I need to make some muffins will do that in the morning and it will be the after school snack for tomorrow. This week is plenty busy not anything really challenging just makeing my September menu, making the grocery list, paying the bills and deciding what to do this weekend since my kids are with thier dad.. I am thinking about crockpot pizza tomorrow night for supper.. We will see if not then porkchops and dressing in the crockpot. I have to be gone tomorrow afternoon for a bit then Jordin has a ballgame..
Well I think I shall sign off for now, but just wanted to say Hello....
God Bless
I have made 2 double batches of no bake cookies since Thursday and they are all gone.. I need to make some muffins will do that in the morning and it will be the after school snack for tomorrow. This week is plenty busy not anything really challenging just makeing my September menu, making the grocery list, paying the bills and deciding what to do this weekend since my kids are with thier dad.. I am thinking about crockpot pizza tomorrow night for supper.. We will see if not then porkchops and dressing in the crockpot. I have to be gone tomorrow afternoon for a bit then Jordin has a ballgame..
Well I think I shall sign off for now, but just wanted to say Hello....
God Bless
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Wow it has been a long day..
I did however get most of my list of things to do done.. I will finish it up tomorrow and keep right on keeping on.. I have had a good day it is nice to take my time get things done and enjoy it...
Tomorrow is Friday.. Woot Woot.. I think Jacob has a friend coming home with him after school, Jill and Josie might have, Jeremiah well who knows.. LOL Oh and let's not forget that Jordin has a ballgame at home..
Here is just a little something I want to throw out there because of something a friend of mine and her family are going through right now.. I am asking you to please pray for them as they face some changes up ahead...
Just remember if you are doing what God has ask of you to do and someone else comes in and tries to change it all around and tell you this or that and cause problems and blame you for things.. Wash your hands of the whole situation and walk away. It really does not matter what people think or say.. Especially the ones who have been told you are the trouble maker because someday after you leave and the problem is still there people will see and know that things are not always as they appear.. I love ya Nae and God takes care of His children....
God Bless,
Tomorrow is Friday.. Woot Woot.. I think Jacob has a friend coming home with him after school, Jill and Josie might have, Jeremiah well who knows.. LOL Oh and let's not forget that Jordin has a ballgame at home..
Here is just a little something I want to throw out there because of something a friend of mine and her family are going through right now.. I am asking you to please pray for them as they face some changes up ahead...
Just remember if you are doing what God has ask of you to do and someone else comes in and tries to change it all around and tell you this or that and cause problems and blame you for things.. Wash your hands of the whole situation and walk away. It really does not matter what people think or say.. Especially the ones who have been told you are the trouble maker because someday after you leave and the problem is still there people will see and know that things are not always as they appear.. I love ya Nae and God takes care of His children....
God Bless,
Jordin McKenzie.........
Jordin Mckenzie Curtis where oh were do I begin?? He is my oldest child. He is a good helper, worker, student (most of the time), handsome, has manners, and is just an all around good kid.. He is my child that I think was content with staying in the womb and not coming out... His original due date was August 4th and he was finally born on August 20th, 1993. He weighed in at 8 pounds 3 ounces.
In his 17 years of life he has been through, seen and expierenced many things.. Some good, some bad, but to look at him and talk to him you would not know.. The morning after he was born we packed up in Nana's car and moved 650 miles back to Missouri.. (no I did not want to move back, but my mother thought she was the boss) This move was in 93 when everything up here had flooded and so instead of a 10-12 hour ride is was like 14-16 of course we stopped a few extra times so I could stretch, feed and change the baby.. His father lives in Ky and has never seen or met him and it makes me sad because I know what a great kid Jordin is and well he and his wife are missing out..
I am going to say this about Jordin, praise the Lord for insurance.. I am telling you I think we could have bought a hospital, dr's office and paid the dr's salary with all the money that has been spent by us and the insurance on this kid.. It used to be the joke that he was in the er at least once a year.. He would fall and bust his head, or take his own money and buy a pocket knife and slice his hand on Christmas eve, get bitten by his uncles rot, or get hurt on the farm, you name it this kid had accident written all over for awhile, but praise the Lord I think we have broken this cycle.. (knocking on wood, like real wood.)
This kid is one heck of a kid.. He plays softball, basketball, track and loves to hunt, fish and work on the farm..
Jordin McKenzie Curtis mom loves you and is so very proud of you.. You have given me much joy, love, proud moments and some hold your breath and wonder moments. I loved you before you were born and love you so much more than you know.. You have made me so proud in these past 17 years and I know you will give me mucho more.. Love you so much...
In his 17 years of life he has been through, seen and expierenced many things.. Some good, some bad, but to look at him and talk to him you would not know.. The morning after he was born we packed up in Nana's car and moved 650 miles back to Missouri.. (no I did not want to move back, but my mother thought she was the boss) This move was in 93 when everything up here had flooded and so instead of a 10-12 hour ride is was like 14-16 of course we stopped a few extra times so I could stretch, feed and change the baby.. His father lives in Ky and has never seen or met him and it makes me sad because I know what a great kid Jordin is and well he and his wife are missing out..
I am going to say this about Jordin, praise the Lord for insurance.. I am telling you I think we could have bought a hospital, dr's office and paid the dr's salary with all the money that has been spent by us and the insurance on this kid.. It used to be the joke that he was in the er at least once a year.. He would fall and bust his head, or take his own money and buy a pocket knife and slice his hand on Christmas eve, get bitten by his uncles rot, or get hurt on the farm, you name it this kid had accident written all over for awhile, but praise the Lord I think we have broken this cycle.. (knocking on wood, like real wood.)
This kid is one heck of a kid.. He plays softball, basketball, track and loves to hunt, fish and work on the farm..
Jordin McKenzie Curtis mom loves you and is so very proud of you.. You have given me much joy, love, proud moments and some hold your breath and wonder moments. I loved you before you were born and love you so much more than you know.. You have made me so proud in these past 17 years and I know you will give me mucho more.. Love you so much...
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I love you son,
God Bless
Boy I have been busy today.....
I decided when I got up this morning I was going to get lots of stuff done and well I am doing pretty good job getting things done.. Here is my list with a line through what I have gotten done so far..
1.Dishes
2.Clean of the counters
3.make no bake cookies for the kids afterschool
4.Sweep kitchen and bathroom floors
5.mop the bathroom and kitchen floors
6.clean off dining room table
7. sweep dining room
8.take out the kitty liter
9. pick up living room
10. sweep living room
11. Pick up hallway
12. Go upstairs and get clothes to sort and get rid of or donate
13. Write a thank you note
14. clean front porch
15. relax..
I am going to have the kids pick up the hallway and the living room and bring down the clothes for me to sort and they can also sweep the living room and dining room.. Yep think I got it under control...
Have a great day,
God Bless
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7. sweep dining room
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9. pick up living room
10. sweep living room
11. Pick up hallway
12. Go upstairs and get clothes to sort and get rid of or donate
13. Write a thank you note
14. clean front porch
15. relax..
I am going to have the kids pick up the hallway and the living room and bring down the clothes for me to sort and they can also sweep the living room and dining room.. Yep think I got it under control...
Have a great day,
God Bless
Shew I am so sorry I have not written lately......
Life has been a bit crazy here the past few weeks.. We had fair week that started the first full week of August.. My car broke down that week, however I was able to attend a few of the events. The ones I really wanted to see the Christian Concert night and the Bullriding.. I really do not like our fair at all in fact I do my best to stay away from the midway and such because well 1 it is a rip off.. 2 it always brings out the hoodlums.. Sorry if that offends anyone, but we are a small town and when the fair comes to town everyone comes out and you seen more kids like young kids making out, dressing like they think they need to show you every part of their bodies and well it just is not a total family friendly enviroment. In fact I dislike it so much I told my kids that instead of taking them to the fair in town where it was $15 a kid to ride rides (like 4 or 5 that they wanted to ride) I could take us to Worlds of Fun in Kansas City for $25 a ticket and we could ride and ride all day long not just a couple hours.. Well I was talking to their grandma and she said well I will help pay for that because I ususally pay for them to go to the fair, but it is a rip off so She paid for 5 of our 6 tickets and I paid for the 6th one, parking, gas down there and took food for us to eat.. The kids and I had a wonderful day.. We got there at open (10am) and stayed till close (10pm) yes were all tired and ready to come home, but woot woot it was great.. That was on Friday.. Well the following Monday....
Jacob and I left for Church camp.. We had an awesome week at Church camp.. It was much smaller than normal, but it was so very hot it allowed us to change things up a bit to keep the kids cool as possible and have fun in the Lord.. I had an awesome cabin of girls and awesome assistant cabin leaders and my bestie Hannah Banana and Wendy were next door and Janna was below us.. The whole week was wonderful and such a blessing..... We came home on Friday morning and I went to sleep and slept pretty much till Sunday Night.. I was sick and did not know it.. In fact I continued to get sicker over the next few days, but we had open house for school, moutains of paperwork to be filled out, and the first day of school to contend with.. I did however call on Tuesday and made an appointment for Thursday so woot woot.. First day of school went great.. The kids are liking being back in school and I am liking them liking being back in school..
Thursday was the dr.. It was what I thought was wrong with me. Had a big pocket of infection in my armpit that was staph.. She stuck it and drained it and gave me cream.. Friday night I was still not feeling good in fact I slept the weekend away which is so not me, but I had a fever and was sick, stopped at the dr on Monday my dr saw me gave me meds and I am now feeling much better.. The upside is that I have been loosing weight. Woot woot
Yesterday Joslyn had to go to the dr in Kansas City for her ear.. Praise the Lord her ear drum does not have a hole in it. It did at one time and has healed over, but instead of 4-6 layers of skin stuff her's has like 1-2 layers so to take a quick look it looks like a hole, but it is not.. Woot Woot..
Well I am going to get off here for now.. I think I have pretty much brought you up to date on things here.. I have more things to share, but first I have some house duties that have got to get done.. Have a great afternoon and chat with ya soon..
God Bless
Jacob and I left for Church camp.. We had an awesome week at Church camp.. It was much smaller than normal, but it was so very hot it allowed us to change things up a bit to keep the kids cool as possible and have fun in the Lord.. I had an awesome cabin of girls and awesome assistant cabin leaders and my bestie Hannah Banana and Wendy were next door and Janna was below us.. The whole week was wonderful and such a blessing..... We came home on Friday morning and I went to sleep and slept pretty much till Sunday Night.. I was sick and did not know it.. In fact I continued to get sicker over the next few days, but we had open house for school, moutains of paperwork to be filled out, and the first day of school to contend with.. I did however call on Tuesday and made an appointment for Thursday so woot woot.. First day of school went great.. The kids are liking being back in school and I am liking them liking being back in school..
Thursday was the dr.. It was what I thought was wrong with me. Had a big pocket of infection in my armpit that was staph.. She stuck it and drained it and gave me cream.. Friday night I was still not feeling good in fact I slept the weekend away which is so not me, but I had a fever and was sick, stopped at the dr on Monday my dr saw me gave me meds and I am now feeling much better.. The upside is that I have been loosing weight. Woot woot
Yesterday Joslyn had to go to the dr in Kansas City for her ear.. Praise the Lord her ear drum does not have a hole in it. It did at one time and has healed over, but instead of 4-6 layers of skin stuff her's has like 1-2 layers so to take a quick look it looks like a hole, but it is not.. Woot Woot..
Well I am going to get off here for now.. I think I have pretty much brought you up to date on things here.. I have more things to share, but first I have some house duties that have got to get done.. Have a great afternoon and chat with ya soon..
God Bless
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
God Is So Good..................
Last weekend I spent alone and thinking and praying.. Things have been kinda rough, here lately and so as I was praying I prayed that God would give the kids and I a finacial blessing.. I prayed this for a few days and knew that no matter what God was in control and if it were in His will then we would have that blessing.. Fastforward to yesterday...
Yesterday I had prayed for this finacial blessing again for the kids and I however the Lord decided to bless us.. Yesterday I go to the mailbox and had been underpaid $167 on my food stamp card.. (I will not debate with you over getting this help or whether or not God wants me to have it blah blah.. ) I was like wow how cool is that then a bit later in the day I was basically given $200 to buy the girls school clothes from their grandma who take the little boys to buy thier clothes, but knows the teenage girls need to pick out their own stuff... Then last night I talked to the gma again and this week is the fair week here.. I dislike the fair I think it is robbery and ugh I just hate fair week.. The kids are with their dad this week, but I had told them that instead of going to the fair if I could swing it we would go to Kansas City to Worlds of Fun for a day.. Gma usually helps the kids dad pay for them to go to the fair has bought our tickets to go to WOF.. I just have to buy the gas and pack the cooler..
All I can say is wow Thank YOU GOD.. I asked for a simple blessing and we were blessed threefold.. I am so thankful to God for this and to gma for being willing and open to bless us.. God is so good..
We need to remember to praise Him in the good and the bad and especially to thank Him for all the things He does or gives to us no matter how big or how small. When He answers our prayers we need to make sure to give Him all the Glory Honor and Praise...
I love you Lord.. Please give us a nice day at Worlds of Fun and let it be a little cooler with a breeze.. I love you LOrd..
God Bless
Yesterday I had prayed for this finacial blessing again for the kids and I however the Lord decided to bless us.. Yesterday I go to the mailbox and had been underpaid $167 on my food stamp card.. (I will not debate with you over getting this help or whether or not God wants me to have it blah blah.. ) I was like wow how cool is that then a bit later in the day I was basically given $200 to buy the girls school clothes from their grandma who take the little boys to buy thier clothes, but knows the teenage girls need to pick out their own stuff... Then last night I talked to the gma again and this week is the fair week here.. I dislike the fair I think it is robbery and ugh I just hate fair week.. The kids are with their dad this week, but I had told them that instead of going to the fair if I could swing it we would go to Kansas City to Worlds of Fun for a day.. Gma usually helps the kids dad pay for them to go to the fair has bought our tickets to go to WOF.. I just have to buy the gas and pack the cooler..
All I can say is wow Thank YOU GOD.. I asked for a simple blessing and we were blessed threefold.. I am so thankful to God for this and to gma for being willing and open to bless us.. God is so good..
We need to remember to praise Him in the good and the bad and especially to thank Him for all the things He does or gives to us no matter how big or how small. When He answers our prayers we need to make sure to give Him all the Glory Honor and Praise...
I love you Lord.. Please give us a nice day at Worlds of Fun and let it be a little cooler with a breeze.. I love you LOrd..
God Bless
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Long lost friends and blessings...
I have wondered about you and missed you for years and wondered if I would ever talk to you again.. You and I had always been close you were like my best friend and older sister wrapped into one.. Gosh I cannot even tell you how happy I was to see that you wanted to be my friend on facebook yesterday.. I was super duper excited and then to talk to you on the phone today for the first time in FFFFOOOOORRRRREVVVVERRRRR was awesome.. I am so super duper excited that God has brought you back into my life.. A little sad that you now live 10, 000 miles away in Sweden, but that is ok.. We can chat online, on the phone and well hopefully visit.. :)
You are a blessing to me and I am so very happy for you Ami that you have found happiness with Mats and pray that all keeps going well with you in Sweden.. Don't worry I have like 5million thoughts running through my head about visiting and such..
Sometimes we forget how small of a thing a blessing can be or just how big they are.. Blessings are in different shapes, sizes, colors and etc.. Dont forget to look for the blessings from above in everything you say, do , recieve and etc.. God has so many blessings for each of us it is unreal to me sometimes...
Thank You Lord for bring my dear sister and friend Ami back into my life.. I am so thankful and also for her brother Danny.. God you are so good...
God Bless
You are a blessing to me and I am so very happy for you Ami that you have found happiness with Mats and pray that all keeps going well with you in Sweden.. Don't worry I have like 5million thoughts running through my head about visiting and such..
Sometimes we forget how small of a thing a blessing can be or just how big they are.. Blessings are in different shapes, sizes, colors and etc.. Dont forget to look for the blessings from above in everything you say, do , recieve and etc.. God has so many blessings for each of us it is unreal to me sometimes...
Thank You Lord for bring my dear sister and friend Ami back into my life.. I am so thankful and also for her brother Danny.. God you are so good...
God Bless
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Not good enough....
How many of you like me have ever felt like you are not good enough or have been told you are not good enough? I know how bad it hurts and how it makes you feel when you don't think you are good enough.
For some of us it is our families that make us feel this way or tell us we are not good enough and some of our families show us by the actions they have towards us. Maybe it is because we do not do things the way they think we should or the way others do them does this make them any more right that us?? No not really however some of us have had to make choices and decisions and take responsibilty for those choices, while others are given things on a silver platter..
For some of us it is friends that cause us to feel this way or maybe it's our co workers and as young people maybe teachers or coaches.. You see their are people who are supposed to love us and help us that do just the opposite...
I just want to let you know you ARE GOOD ENOUGH for God.. He loves us inspite of us and even when we are unloveable.. Do not forget this and don't let things get you down and make you feel like you are not good enough because I assure you that YOU ARE....
God Bless
For some of us it is our families that make us feel this way or tell us we are not good enough and some of our families show us by the actions they have towards us. Maybe it is because we do not do things the way they think we should or the way others do them does this make them any more right that us?? No not really however some of us have had to make choices and decisions and take responsibilty for those choices, while others are given things on a silver platter..
For some of us it is friends that cause us to feel this way or maybe it's our co workers and as young people maybe teachers or coaches.. You see their are people who are supposed to love us and help us that do just the opposite...
I just want to let you know you ARE GOOD ENOUGH for God.. He loves us inspite of us and even when we are unloveable.. Do not forget this and don't let things get you down and make you feel like you are not good enough because I assure you that YOU ARE....
God Bless
Saturday, July 10, 2010
I'll pray for you....
When I say I'll pray for you I am not meaning pray for you like in the new country song I'll pray for you.. I mean really pray for you..
"I make mention of you always in my prayers".. Romans 1:9
"Confess your trespasses to one another and pray for one another that you may be healed. The effective fervant prayer of a righteous man avails much." James 5:16
I am one who thinks it is best to pray for not only my friend, but also those who persecute me as it says to do in the Bible.. I have found from things that have gone on and happened in the past that it is easier for me to just pray for everyone especially the ones who hurt me. You see I know that I could get even with them or hurt them, but it is God's job not mine so if I let Him deal with them whatever happens would be a far better lesson than what I did. He knows just how to deal with each of us and so I just pray for God's will, wisdom and strength to keep my mouth shut. I do not pray for harm, but for God's will and for them to recieve whatever lesson or consequences He has for them.
I pray because I am happy, sad, hurt, in need, blessed well let's just say I pray all the time because I love to talk to the Lord. I pray for you when you run through my mind. I pray for you if you ask. I pray for you if I see a need. Sometimes I just pray that God Bless ya just because.. I pray because I want to and I am free too... God has given me a heart to pray for others and to encourage others so that my friends is what I try to do...
I know their have been times in my life when prayer was the only answer and how great is it that we are able to pray whenever and wherever we are.. What a huge blessing and joy that is
I could talk alot on prayer and well I am sure there will be many post on the power of prayer, answered prayer, the joy of prayer and well just prayer..
Have you had your talk with Jesus today?? Stop take time to pray and not just ask for things, but thank Him for what He has done, will do, has given and will give you and ask Him to forgive you and remember to praise Him through your prayer.. God is so good..
God Bless
"I make mention of you always in my prayers".. Romans 1:9
"Confess your trespasses to one another and pray for one another that you may be healed. The effective fervant prayer of a righteous man avails much." James 5:16
I am one who thinks it is best to pray for not only my friend, but also those who persecute me as it says to do in the Bible.. I have found from things that have gone on and happened in the past that it is easier for me to just pray for everyone especially the ones who hurt me. You see I know that I could get even with them or hurt them, but it is God's job not mine so if I let Him deal with them whatever happens would be a far better lesson than what I did. He knows just how to deal with each of us and so I just pray for God's will, wisdom and strength to keep my mouth shut. I do not pray for harm, but for God's will and for them to recieve whatever lesson or consequences He has for them.
I pray because I am happy, sad, hurt, in need, blessed well let's just say I pray all the time because I love to talk to the Lord. I pray for you when you run through my mind. I pray for you if you ask. I pray for you if I see a need. Sometimes I just pray that God Bless ya just because.. I pray because I want to and I am free too... God has given me a heart to pray for others and to encourage others so that my friends is what I try to do...
I know their have been times in my life when prayer was the only answer and how great is it that we are able to pray whenever and wherever we are.. What a huge blessing and joy that is
I could talk alot on prayer and well I am sure there will be many post on the power of prayer, answered prayer, the joy of prayer and well just prayer..
Have you had your talk with Jesus today?? Stop take time to pray and not just ask for things, but thank Him for what He has done, will do, has given and will give you and ask Him to forgive you and remember to praise Him through your prayer.. God is so good..
God Bless
Friday, July 9, 2010
Menu Planner..
The kids are coming back from their dad's today so I have made out or menu for this week and then they will be gone a week then home a week.. So this menu is this week and the next week they are home or at least most of it... This menu is subject to change at anytime.. LOL
Here goes.....
beef fajitas
parmesan Chicken
Roast, taters and carrots
Chicken enchiladas
Meatballs, mashed taters, green beans
Pork chops, stuffing and corn
Mini Chimichangas
Pizza burgers
bacon cheeseburger balls
Omlets
breakfast pizza
Sandwhiches
BLT's
pancakes and bacon.... :)
Trying some new things will post recipes and such as I try them,,,
Have a great day
God Bless
Here goes.....
beef fajitas
parmesan Chicken
Roast, taters and carrots
Chicken enchiladas
Meatballs, mashed taters, green beans
Pork chops, stuffing and corn
Mini Chimichangas
Pizza burgers
bacon cheeseburger balls
Omlets
breakfast pizza
Sandwhiches
BLT's
pancakes and bacon.... :)
Trying some new things will post recipes and such as I try them,,,
Have a great day
God Bless
It has been a loooong week....
Usually the weeks the kids are with their dad just fly by, however this week has been a bit different.. It seems to have lasted 2-3 weeks instead of just one week.. Of course lots has happened this week since they left.. Let's see Jill turned 15 last Saturday.. Family BBQ.. oh wait I mean drama Sat night, Church Sunday morning where we found out our dear Pastor and his family are leaving us in 3 short weeks, it has rained, had a bill paying day, ran errands, went to the store, made out my menu, took Jill for her permit test and babysat a few days..
So although it has been very busy and somewhat hectic this week still is dragging by.. I did have the kids with me for a little while yesterday and that was nice.. They are excited and ready to come home.. Who can blame them really.. There is no place like home and especially no place like home with a mommy who loves and cares about them and feeds them good food and spends time with them... I think tonight we will have supper then watch the movie The Secrets of Jonathon Sperry together. That should be fun...
Off to do a few more things before they get here..
God Bless
So although it has been very busy and somewhat hectic this week still is dragging by.. I did have the kids with me for a little while yesterday and that was nice.. They are excited and ready to come home.. Who can blame them really.. There is no place like home and especially no place like home with a mommy who loves and cares about them and feeds them good food and spends time with them... I think tonight we will have supper then watch the movie The Secrets of Jonathon Sperry together. That should be fun...
Off to do a few more things before they get here..
God Bless
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Sometimes I
Sometimes I wish I could make everything good for everyone.. Sometimes I wish I could make all the hurt stop... Sometimes I wish I had the power at my hand to make all your dreams come true... The more I stop and think about it I know that I can have a part in it to some degree because I have my Lord Jesus Christ and I pray for you and for me.. I know that He holds the future and whatever He has for us is not just good, but better than anything we could give ourselves. He has known us since before we were formed in our mother's womb and so He knows exactly what we need when we need it.
I know if you are like me sometimes you get down or sad or you see someone else having a hard time and you want to do something for them, but you have no idea just what to do.. I say do the one thing you can always do no matter what and that is to pray for them. I pray for them even when I am able to go and help them out in someway, because they may just need more than that helping hand.. When someone tells you there is nothing you can do just remember there is always something you can do... Pray Pray... I love to have long talks with God, He is my best friend and I can talk to Him whenever and whereever He always has time for me and He always has time for you.. So the next time you are wishing you could do something different or something to help someone out remember you can.... PRAY..
God Bless
I know if you are like me sometimes you get down or sad or you see someone else having a hard time and you want to do something for them, but you have no idea just what to do.. I say do the one thing you can always do no matter what and that is to pray for them. I pray for them even when I am able to go and help them out in someway, because they may just need more than that helping hand.. When someone tells you there is nothing you can do just remember there is always something you can do... Pray Pray... I love to have long talks with God, He is my best friend and I can talk to Him whenever and whereever He always has time for me and He always has time for you.. So the next time you are wishing you could do something different or something to help someone out remember you can.... PRAY..
God Bless
Monday, July 5, 2010
Did you really think I would not figure it out...
In the beginning things were so good and you know what I was content with how things were at that time and would not have changed the beginning for anything.. I wish we could have had more time together, but we had all the time we could. You made me feel so special, so loved and so wanted, in fact it felt so good and so right I tried a few times to run away........ Everytime I returned to you and I loved you more and more with each passing moment I thought I would die without you. You made me promises and did things for me noone else had ever done and I was in awe... We had bumps yes, but in the beginning we were both willing to work to make things better and after awhile you seemed to give up like there was no way I could ever make you as happy as you first thought.. I would do just about anything for you and I guess maybe I was blinded by love or maybe it was stupidity. When I tried to walk away and couldn't it was because I felt like God was drawing me back to you I felt like He had a purpose to fufill through us and our family.
I know kinda how God feels when He draws us to Himself and yet we try to keep doing our own thing. I know how He feels when His people whom He loves and wants to be with turn away and go thier own way not really caring about His ways.
I maybe should not have pulled away when I felt you pulling away from me.. I tried to keep loving you and making you happy and you would not let me.. I know that their are things we could have done differently and the one main thing that sticks out in my head is that we could have kept Christ in the center of our relationship, looked to Him and His word to help us make it all work out..
Now it seems as though you never cared as I thought you did and like it was all a lie.. I hope deep in my heart that was not the case for you. I pray that someday God has a talk with you and you realize that yes I had blame in it as well, but it was not all me.
God has a sense of humor and a way of showing us things in a different way than we think. I pray that someday you wake up and know just how much you were loved, wanted and needed not just by me or my kids, but by your family and most inportantly by God.. Every night as I go to bed I pray that God wrap you in His arms and kiss you goodnight to make sure you feel loved.. I have said it before I wish I did not like you or care for you because maybe life would be better, but I do care and I pray for you everyday. It is not enough to talk the talk, but you need to learn to walk to walk and talk the talk at the same time... You are a blessing.. God has a purpose for you please don't ignore what God calls you do to..
This goes for anyone reading this God has a plan and a reason for things. His ways are not our ways, for His are better.. Don't think you can fool God by only living for Him at certain times or in certain ways... He knows and He has a way of humbling His people to bring them back. If God is calling you to do something then do it, don't tell God to hold on because He does not tell you too.....
God Bless..
Just know that when you feel that snuggly feeling at night or the brush of angels wings I have prayed for God to kiss you and tuck you in tight and help you to feel loved..
I know kinda how God feels when He draws us to Himself and yet we try to keep doing our own thing. I know how He feels when His people whom He loves and wants to be with turn away and go thier own way not really caring about His ways.
I maybe should not have pulled away when I felt you pulling away from me.. I tried to keep loving you and making you happy and you would not let me.. I know that their are things we could have done differently and the one main thing that sticks out in my head is that we could have kept Christ in the center of our relationship, looked to Him and His word to help us make it all work out..
Now it seems as though you never cared as I thought you did and like it was all a lie.. I hope deep in my heart that was not the case for you. I pray that someday God has a talk with you and you realize that yes I had blame in it as well, but it was not all me.
God has a sense of humor and a way of showing us things in a different way than we think. I pray that someday you wake up and know just how much you were loved, wanted and needed not just by me or my kids, but by your family and most inportantly by God.. Every night as I go to bed I pray that God wrap you in His arms and kiss you goodnight to make sure you feel loved.. I have said it before I wish I did not like you or care for you because maybe life would be better, but I do care and I pray for you everyday. It is not enough to talk the talk, but you need to learn to walk to walk and talk the talk at the same time... You are a blessing.. God has a purpose for you please don't ignore what God calls you do to..
This goes for anyone reading this God has a plan and a reason for things. His ways are not our ways, for His are better.. Don't think you can fool God by only living for Him at certain times or in certain ways... He knows and He has a way of humbling His people to bring them back. If God is calling you to do something then do it, don't tell God to hold on because He does not tell you too.....
God Bless..
Just know that when you feel that snuggly feeling at night or the brush of angels wings I have prayed for God to kiss you and tuck you in tight and help you to feel loved..
Saturday, July 3, 2010
15 years ago today.......
Jillian Nichole is going into the 10th grade this fall at THS.. She plays softball, basketball, runs track, sings in choir, plays in band and well just about anything else she can do.. She is boy crazy which drives her momma crazy, but all in all is a great kid.. Let me tell you though she is stubborn and a little mouthy, but hey she is a teenage girl right..
Jillian has the most beautiful long blonde natural curly hair, blue eyes and a beautiful smile..
She is very independent and has been since the time she was conceived. She knows what she wants and is willing to go after it.. She always wants to look cute, but has realized it is ok to not wear make-up. She loves the Lord.
Happy Birthday to my 2nd child 1st daughter Jillian Nichole Newton.. I love you and I am so very proud of you.. Keep smiling, keep doing your best and know that no matter what you have God on your side and a momma who is always there for you. Love you darlin even if you do wear your boots with shorts.. LOL I know I know it is the style... LOL You are so beautiful..
Happy Birthday Jillybean....
God Bless..
PS will let you know how she dones on her drivers permit test.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Daughter of the year.....
Yes you read that right I am in the running for daughter of the year now.. My oldest daughter and Jill went to my parents house last night and worked and are back at it today trying to make sure it is at least in some semblance of order for when my mother gets here for the weekend. Let me tell you that we both deserve an award. I will get back to you on whether or not my mother thinks it deserves an award.. I worked forever last night. I thought while waiting on the washer and dryer I would post a few posts on here and then I am going to share my blog addy with all of my friends.. :) So anyway just wanted everyone to know I am back in the running for daughter of the year.. :) After today I may have to pass the torch to My baby sister Megan I am sure I should not be the only kid out of us 5 to have so much fun.. :)
Have a great day and God Bless
Have a great day and God Bless
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Some people need to get a life.....
I know that when we are getting closer to the Lord that satan likes to do his best to pull us away.. So I got back from a wonderful week of Church camp on Friday and last night around 9:30pm one of the deputy sherriff's showed up at my house.. Now he is a guy I have known for years and so we chitchatted and he said well I have a piece of paper for you.. I instantly knew what it was all about. You see I am friends with a gal and have been for 25 years and through alot of underhanded stuff, lies and such my friend's ex and his wife have custody of the children.. The stepmom wants the kids to believe that their mom wants nothing to with them and that she does not love them which is a lie. She is so hard on the 2 because she does not want them to learn the truth. Well the 2 kids were at Church camp when I was and she is so afraid that someone will tell those kids that their mom loves them and wants to be a part of their lives that she has decided I should have a restraining order put on me to keep me from talking to those 2 kids..
Now first of all she knew way before camp I would be there. Why if you are so worried would you send them? Anyway please pray God's will in this situation and that when we go to court she and the judge will see just how stupid and petty this is... I want to tell the kids, but it is not my place....
Anyway I think it is time she got a life and realized just what she is doing and has done.. The kids already have bad attitudes towards her because of how she is with them, but God is in control and I know He will take care of it all.. I just think get a real life instead of trying to run everyone else's lives.....
Have a great day,
God Blessed
Now first of all she knew way before camp I would be there. Why if you are so worried would you send them? Anyway please pray God's will in this situation and that when we go to court she and the judge will see just how stupid and petty this is... I want to tell the kids, but it is not my place....
Anyway I think it is time she got a life and realized just what she is doing and has done.. The kids already have bad attitudes towards her because of how she is with them, but God is in control and I know He will take care of it all.. I just think get a real life instead of trying to run everyone else's lives.....
Have a great day,
God Blessed
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Welcome to my blog....
Hi there.. Welcome to my little home on the web.. I love to write and so I started this blog as my other was really hard to get to and use. So here I am.. There really is no telling what you might read here in my blog.
I am a momma to my 5 wonderful kids.. Jordin will be 17 in August, Jillian will be 15 in July, Joslyn will be 13 in November, Jacob will be 11 in December and Jeremiah will be 8 in July.. We live in Missouri..
I love to read, write, bake, cook, spend time with my kids, be frugal, surf the web and lots of other things... If you wanna know something just ask..
I am headed to be it has been a long hot long hot long long hot hot week so far.. Praying God Blessings on you all...
God Bless
I am a momma to my 5 wonderful kids.. Jordin will be 17 in August, Jillian will be 15 in July, Joslyn will be 13 in November, Jacob will be 11 in December and Jeremiah will be 8 in July.. We live in Missouri..
I love to read, write, bake, cook, spend time with my kids, be frugal, surf the web and lots of other things... If you wanna know something just ask..
I am headed to be it has been a long hot long hot long long hot hot week so far.. Praying God Blessings on you all...
God Bless
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