The struggle is real.. Yes I try to just leave it in God's hands and yes I trust Him and know His timing and will are perfect, but alas I am human..
Somedays or nights the loneliness is overwhelming and it brings with it lies from satan about not being good enough, being fat, ugly, about being punished and feelings of hopelessness. Most days I say a prayer and try to ignore those feelings, however there are those days when I want to yell and scream what about me?? God what about me, am I destined to be alone forever? Do I not deserve to be loved by a man here on earth? Am I really that bad? Especially when I see others finding what seems to be their "one" after a much shorter time being alone than I have been..
Sometimes I cry out wondering if I haven't struggled enough, have I been that bad of a person and often feel defeated and like there is no-one and I should give up completely because I messed up and couldn't keep my first or second marriage together. I am a failure and am so undeserving.
Do you know the struggle of holding your head up high and pretending everything is ok when all you really want to do is crawl in a hole and cry? The struggle of feeling like a failure and not being able to overcome it, not just because of the failed marriages, but because you seem to always be the failure in your families eyes?
The struggle is very real and I'm sure I am not the only one who struggles. I know others struggle with feeling alone and with being not good enough.
Somedays or nights the loneliness is overwhelming and it brings with it lies from satan about not being good enough, being fat, ugly, about being punished and feelings of hopelessness. Most days I say a prayer and try to ignore those feelings, however there are those days when I want to yell and scream what about me?? God what about me, am I destined to be alone forever? Do I not deserve to be loved by a man here on earth? Am I really that bad? Especially when I see others finding what seems to be their "one" after a much shorter time being alone than I have been..
Sometimes I cry out wondering if I haven't struggled enough, have I been that bad of a person and often feel defeated and like there is no-one and I should give up completely because I messed up and couldn't keep my first or second marriage together. I am a failure and am so undeserving.
Do you know the struggle of holding your head up high and pretending everything is ok when all you really want to do is crawl in a hole and cry? The struggle of feeling like a failure and not being able to overcome it, not just because of the failed marriages, but because you seem to always be the failure in your families eyes?
The struggle is very real and I'm sure I am not the only one who struggles. I know others struggle with feeling alone and with being not good enough.
