Just some thoughts from me..

 Good afternoon.. 

I hope you are all doing well. I am doing well. I think.. LOL I have some thoughts running through my head and I would like to express them. Now keep in mind I know that not everyone will agree with what I have to say and that is ok, We don't always have to agree. In fact this world would be a much better place if people realized that it's ok to disagree. It is not ok to be mean, hateful and nasty to those who do not have the same opinion as you. They have just as much right to their opinion as you do to have your opinion. I believe it shows a person's true character when they have an opinion and if you do not have the same they begin to call you names, try to shame you, tell you how wrong you are and just downright mean and hateful. OH yes and my favorite is when someone says if you don't agree with me unfriend me.. Like really? What the heck is that all about. What kind of a person unfriends someone for having a different opinion? I have some friends who feel very differently and very strongly against how I think, feel and believe, will I let this ruin a friendship? NO I won't. You see I won't yell at you, call you name, be nasty to or be not be your friend because we do not agree. Now What I will do is not engage, not get into a conversation with you especially if I think it will get nasty. Is it really worth a lifelong friendship to be mad over a difference of opinions? I all reality no one is 100% right so its time to grow up and get your crap together and stop being so mean to others. We need to work together, to love one another and not be so divided. 

Wear a mask, don't wear a mask, get the vaccine, don't get it. practice social, distancing, or don't, but DO NOT be nasty, mean and hateful to those who do the opposite of you. If it truly bothers you that much that they don't agree and see things your way then be a grown up and step away and let them have your opinion and you yours.. The world has always been full of differing opinions but today people are downright nasty about it. There is no need for it, it is causing a great divide and what are you going to do when that person you were so nasty too is your only chance for help? Think about that I know it's a crappy thought, but what if they are the only person who could give you blood, a kidney or whatever the case maybe, but you are still too stuck on thinking you are all high and mighty and right that you would rather do without that have to be nice to a person who really did nothing to you except not agree... 

I think that it's time to agree to disagree and if you can't do that simply walk away, no need to fight, call names and be nasty just walk away or do what I do and don't engage in the conversations where people are going to have a chance to be nasty, hateful and mean .. Oh yes and for goodness sake stop calling names when someone doesn't agree with you.. The nastiness is absurd. Being nasty to people for differing opinions are like those kids in the store throwing a fit because they aren't getting the toy or the candy they want.. Do you know how you feel when that is happening? Well that is how I feel when people are being nasty, name calling and hurting those who don't agree..

Have a heart and agree to disagree. The world has enough hate without you adding to it..

Till next time.

Half way through June thoughts...

Well here we are half way through the month of June, which means we are almost half way through the year as well.. How crazy is that.. Last year at this time we were all living a somewhat sheltered life due to the Covid. I have to say that I am so glad that this summer is more of a normal summer so far.. Kids got to play baseball, softball. soccer. basketball, go to camps, fairs and just be kids and have fun. I am just so happy that life is somewhat normal again.. 

It has been hot here in North Missouri and I have made it to the pool a couple of times so far and maybe I wont be so ghostly white all summer.. You know what they say.. Fat looks better Tan, well I better get busy busy busy then.. :) I need some sun.. I really wanna be out walking and riding my bike because not only do I need some sun I need to loose some weight.. I have to wait and see what the Dr has to say about the issue with my foot next week. I cannot do to much or I will hurt and limp around like crazy.. Praying for good news and that we can get it taken care of pretty darn quickly.. I am ready to get back to somewhat normal and I can get back out to walking and exercising so I can hopefully get back on track.

It is hotter than a popcorn fart outside today.. Like it is now 90 degrees.. I have thought about going to the pool today, but my daughter isn't here to go with me.. LOL  I have some strawberries to finish putting up so that is what I am about to do and get some stuff done around here in the house.. 

Do you ever wonder why things are the way they are? Or maybe why people are the way they are? Do you ever long to change something, but aren't sure how to do it? Are you ever just overwhelmed? Sit back take a breath and remember to take care of you and do something for you that makes you happy. We have to do self care or we will fail everyone else who depends on us.. We get to down in the rut and can't get out..

Smile, do something for you and choose happiness and make the best out of today because life is too short to be caught up and mad about something all the time.. 

I am off to do some strawberries.. Have a great afternoon.. See ya'll soon..

Much love friends..
~Me~ 

Feelings and more feelings..

 If i said i wasn't in my feelings today I would be lying. My anxiety has been on overload and if I said I wasn't scared even a little bit right now I would be lying.. I am scared for our Country and my fellow Americans. To watch President Donald Trump give his farewell speech and to watch him board Airforce 1 for the last time made my heart sad.. Truly sad. I am sad that all of the good that has been done for the American people will be undone in a short time. I am sorry if you are a Joe Biden fan, I am not. I do not like the look in his eyes, the sound of his voice or the way he comes across. Do I fear what we are in for with this administration yes yes I do.. Now let me say that I have not always agreed with everything that the Trump Administration did? No, but I have always felt they were out for the people honestly out for the people. I do believe Trump wanted the best for the people and would do the best He could for us.. I am having a hard time putting my thoughts into words which is odd for me, but I will try more tomorrow.

What's on my heart!

 Well here we are almost half way through 2021 and I have had so many things on my heart and the past 2 weeks I think I have partially figured out why my heart has been heavy and why I have some of the feelings I have. So sit back, grab a glass of lemonade and join me on this little story time..

Jeremiah 29:11 says For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. I know a lot of times we tell this to kids as they are graduating high school and college and going out into the world. We as adults need to keep it in the forefront of our minds as well. Life sometimes throws us curve balls and we forget that God has a plan and that He will work it all out in His way and in His time.. 

The end of 2019 was pretty normal as far as school starting, fall and winter sports, Christmas and New Years and even the very beginning of 2020 was normal.. My youngest son was in the last half of his senior year and looking forward to playing baseball one last year, senior trip day, graduation and so much more before he was to leave June 1st for basic training... I would be lying if I said I wasn't excited to watch him play the sport he loved the most. I am so glad he decided to play basketball and we got to have Senior night,, (I was afraid I wasn't gonna get that with my last one like I did with the others.) Went back to school after Christmas break and not too long after that we started hearing the dreadful "C'" word and it was not Cancer. 

People were getting sick, going to the hospital, some were passing away and fear was running through so many. Gradey and I had went to Sam's Club on weekend and as we were walking through there he said "do we need to buy toilet paper? I said well we might as well we opened our last package the other day and no one wants to run out of that. LOL I mean we already had laundry soap, paper towels, fabric softener and other stuff. So my thinking was well here we are at Sam's might as well make sure we got it.. Ill be danged the next week toilet paper was disappearing like crazy.. and by the next week there was none anywhere.. I was like Praise the Lord I decided to go ahead and get that big old package of toilet paper.. Then they started talking about quarantine oh and lets not forget the social distance stuff.... Then the kids went on spring break and that was all she wrote for the 2019/2020 school year.. We had to do online school, which was not fun with my son who hated school anyway and it took all my nerves and will to get the kid to finish and be done.. We held out hopes that we would get to go back and play some baseball and get to do all the year end school stuff.. They finally did agree to let us have a graduation ceremony. It was much different than any other, but I got to watch my baby boy walk across the stage and get his Diploma, We even got to have a little reception for him afterwards,, 

Let me throw this in there my work was even closed during the Pandemic for almost 2 months. It was crazy to see how fast life as we knew it shut down. Then we got to the mask wearing mandates, stay home, don't do this and don't do that and all you heard about was the "c" word and how many people were dying, on vents and how fast people were getting sick. People just went batsh@!t crazy. Elderly people were on lockdown and so many died in the nursing homes all alone and without seeing or saying good bye to their families. Like seriously life went crazy for a months and months. Every time you turned on the tv, the radio, opened the news paper or Facebook anything it was all about Covid-19 and the Pandemic.. People were nasty to people. The ones who were die hard mask wearers and those who are all for the vaccine are jumping all over those who were not mask wearers and those who have chosen to get no shot. I could get into a lot of debates here, but that is not what this is about. You see what I learned that people were all about everyone having their rights, but only as long as they followed everyone else. I say you know what we are all able bodied people and we all have the choice to do what we feel is right for us.

Ok so back to the rest of the story.. I had to drop my baby boy off on 5/31/2020 to go to MEPS to leave on June 1st for Fort Jackson South Carolina for Basic Combat Training. He had joined the Missouri National Guard.. This momma is so proud of him.. I could not go see him off at the airport, I could not attend his graduation in person for Basic or AIT. This momma's heart was broken, but oh so proud of her baby boy. I know he had second and third thoughts about joining and as much as I wanted him to stay home and figure out what to do I encouraged him and held him to his choice.. He did it.. I knew he could.. Watching his graduation ceremony brought tears to my eyes.. My heart swelled with pride and every time I hear God Bless America or the National Anthem I get teary eyed. Thank you Jeremiah Hunter Wingate for choosing to serve.. I know it wasn't easy, but you did it..  He had not been home from AIT that long when he got deployed to Washington Dc got the inauguration.. Oh yes I forgot to mention the crap show of an election in 2020, it was really no surprise it was going to be a crap show since 2020 had been a crap show.. (I wont get into politics here, just know that I believe you have the right to vote for whomever as do I and I do not have to be a jerk and neither do you if we don't agree..

So fast forward to the 2020/2021 school year, for the most part the school my kids had attended went back to normal and everything went off like it was a normal year. I as a momma kind of feel like my son, his classmates as well as all the 2020 seniors got screwed.. And now those who are graduating Basic and Ait get to have family day and graduation.. This makes this momma sad and angry because I missed watching such an awesome proud moment in person. I hope that by writing my feelings down and talking about it that makes me feel just a tiny bit better.. You see I know in my heart there was a reason for all of this happening the way it did.. I know God is in control and I pray He heals the hurt in my heart over how things went..  God is Good.. All the time God is Good.. 

My family was blessed throughout the past 18 months and for that I am thankful.. Thank You Lord for keeping my family safe and healthy and please Lord hold me close and help heal my heart.. 

So I guess what I am saying is that no matter what curve balls life throws at us, we need to keep the faith. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5&6 And Pray pray pray.. 

Later Taters.. 

God Bless

Holiday Thoughts part2..

 Holiday thoughts pt.2

Here we are a couple of days after the big day.. I will be one of the first to admit that it really did not feel like it was Christmas time. I am used to going Christmas shopping and love looking at all the stores dressed up or decorated for Christmas and this year with everything that has been and is going on. I only went into a couple of stores that were not Wal Mart and the amount of decorating was a huge disappointment.. I was blessed to be able to drive around and look at Christmas lights a couple of times and that made my heart happy. 

I was able to see and spend time with all 5 of my kids and that in itself is a blessing.. It becomes increasingly hard to coordinate all of the kids schedules and having them all in the same place for any amount of time is well not something that happened this year.. Jordin and Katie came by Christmas Eve and spent sometime before we left to go to Candlelight Service with the rest of the family..  (Might I add all of my siblings and I were in the same place at the same time and no one fought or argued., if you know the Curtis's you will know just how big of  a deal that is. ) I feel very blessed...

I know that some of my friends were celebrating Christmas without some of their loved ones this year. I know that it was the first Christmas without some and that I believe is hard. My thoughts and prayers were with those of my friends that I know have lost loved ones since last Christmas. 2020 has been a crazy year for lots of people and this time last year we were getting ready to enter a new year and most of us were excited to see what the new year would bring.. That lasted like 3 months and then it all went haywire..

I hope that you were able to enjoy your Christmas this year and that the real reason for the season was not lost in the hustle and bustle.. My prayer is that this time next year when you look back you will have had the best year ever and that Christmas has more meaning and thought and not just gifts.. 

Holidays are not always easy for people, but we should take time to think about and remember the real reason for the season and reach out to those who might need a friend or a blessing not just during the holidays, but all through the year..

In a world where you can be anything, Be kind.

Later taters..

Holiday thoughts.. part 1

 Here I sit on the eve of Christmas Eve of 2020. So many thoughts running through my mind. Its crazy that this time last year I was super excited for the holidays and all the joy they bring and this year I face them with anxiety and almost a fear. It seems like things can change in the blink of an eye and things go from good to crap in a matter of seconds. I really am trying to look at it all in a positive light, but there are times that is hard.. 

I do know that we must remember the reason for the season and trust that God has a plan and that it will all work out.. 

Gotta go get the bread out of the oven.. More later

In a world where you can be anything Be kind..

Later Taters..

Weather change a coming..

 Yesterday and today were beautiful outside and it did a person good.. I got off work early and enjoyed some of the beautiful afternoon.. Now we are anticipating a big weather change.. Its going to be 25 degrees cooler tomorrow and raining with a chance of accumulating snow.. I am alright with the snow and such if I can be at home baking and stuff around the house.. I have to work all weekend, but its all good.. 

When I think about the weather going through such a big change, I often think about us as humans and the changes we go through.. Life is full of changes some of them big and some of them small.. Remember when these changes come about there is a reason and they aren't always a walk in the park. They are often hard to understand and leave us wondering why we must go through these changes as they help mold us, teach us and grow us. I firmly believe that God has a plan and He wants us to follow it and sometimes we are not the smartest and he has to show us the way a little more specifically and sometimes it i harsher because we are slow learners and often are opposed to change.. He has a plan and if you trust Him, He will not lead you astray or down the wrong road.. Trust Him and follow Him... Embrace the changes they often lead to great things and bring great joy..

In a world where you can be anything Be KIND..

Later Taters.

Me...